Lust, Lies and Tragedy
Out of about 1,500 performers in California, 18 people that we know of died from aids, suicide, homicide and drug related deaths between 2007 and 2009.
14 more died from medical causes that include lung disease, heart failure and cancer. These are the deaths.
There are more living with diseases and cancers which are too numerous to count.
That’s a total of 32 performers in thirty months between January, 2007 and June, 2009 who died prematurely from HIV, suicide, drugs, murder and medical illnesses.
No other industry has these kinds of statistics, not even the music industry which is at least 10 times bigger than the porn industry.
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I’m tired of the industry. The way that they treat you as though we are just a piece of meat.
That we don’t have a mind and our body is everybody’s and we have no soul.
Guys are punching you in the face. You have semen from many guys all over your face, in your eyes. You get ripped. Your insides can come out of you. It’s never ending.
You’re viewed as an object not as a human spirit. I was a drinker. I drank a lot
Vodka was my drug. Vodka was my numbing toy. Before sets, after sets, and if it
was a set where people didn’t care, they would have it there waiting..-
Porn stars speak out
They told me if I had an AIDS test that I’d be safe. I arrived on the set with my test and did a hardcore scene with two men. Within a week i was very sick with a fever of 104 and blisters all over my mouth, throat and private area. I looked like a monster. The doctor told me I had Genital Herpes. I wanted to die. Roxy aka Shelley Lubben
The truth is I let my life style get the best of me. I hate life. I’m a mess. A
disaster. I’ve attempted suicide many times. No one cares about dead porn stars.-
Guys punching you in the face. You have semen from many guys all over your face,
in your eyes. You get ripped. Your insides come out of you. It’s never ending-
I found out 2 days later that I had caught gonorrhea in my first scene! As quick
as that the glamour of being a porn star was gone. In the first five years I was
shooting I caught Gonorrhea and Chlamydia many times. Sometimes both at the same
time about every 3-
As for myself, I ended up paying the price for working in the porn industry. In
2006, not even 9 months in, I caught a moderate form of dysplasia of the cervix (which
is a form of HPV, a sexually transmitted disease) and later that day, I also found
out that I was pregnant. I had only 1 choice which was to abort the baby during
my first month. It was extremely painful emotionally and phsically. When it was
all over I cried my eyes out. -
My first scene was one of the worst experiences of my life. It was very scary. It
was a very rough scene. My agent didn’t let me know ahead of time... I did it and
I was crying and they didn’t stop. He was hitting me. It hurt. They wouldn’t stop.
They just kept rolling. Drugs are huge. Its unnatural.-
All I knew was I was going to make tons and tons of money. Boy was I wrong! The
average I ever got paid was $900-
I hung out with a lot of people in the Adult industry, everybody from contract girls
to gonzo actresses. Everybody has the same problems. Everybody is on drugs. It’s
an empty lifestyle trying to fill up a void. I became horribly addicted to heroin
and crack. I overdosed at least 3 times, I had ticks pull knives on me, I have been
beaten half to death-
Quoted from www.Shellylubben .com